amiel roldan blog

10 15 2009 I was watching a witch hunt today on a local channel in the Philippines. Quite funny to watch this old newscaster turn red and blue with indignation. She was fumbling with papers and grand gesturing as if it would be a finality. She even doodled with a non working pen as if it meant a thousand words. Let the people in charge do their work. She was trying to pin the blame and I sure no one would accept the blame for these calamities. No one would dare be out of job and responsible for the flooding in all of Luzon. If we could link any government name to the Luzon catastrophe, I am sure we would have done so. It just adds ratings for rambling about theoretically right? As we all know and have experienced in these trying weeks the onslaught of two typhoons Ondoy and Pepeng, landslides, flooding, and deaths to hundreds of Filipinos trapped around Luzon and the Capital region. The calamity doesn't stop there as we come to realize that these conditions will be happening again

10 12 2009 I am one of those people who can never accept a complement without squirming uncomfortably in fright. Of course for self preservation one could hardly tell. Antagonize me and it just might give me a harder backbone. Maybe through the years I may have controlled my reflexes to a point that I might display an almost poker face and air some disdain. But those where times that I might be steering the topic away from me in the next breath by pointing to anyone else. Maybe giving me a complement would really shut me up if one gets fed up with me talking. Ha ha ha ha. Complements reminds me I am more human and really contrary to it. It is not that I am ashamed about the situation -- far from it though. I thrive on it. Humility is a lifelong learning lesson that I promise that I would learn. Anyone would be preening inside if the complement was true and I guess I am just ordinary and an 'anyone' to believe it. It is just that I knew myself through the years and never wanted

10 02 2009 Filipinos love misery. Perhaps because of the teachings of the Church on suffering in this life to achieve a better afterlife that we wallow in depressive atmosphere. Perhaps we yearn for more drama in life. Perhaps that is why we are passionate about Massacre films, Mexican and Korean telenovelas, Reality shows and lately Korean telenovelas spoofs. We hold our protagonists so elevated that we revere in them godliness. We want the protagonist to win and all the other characters to suffer in their greed. We have the fixation that only the actor or actress should succeed and become unreachable and the other cast members to be dumbfounded in the end and suffer hell. We rarely have a happy ending for all. We make the grandest gestures to ensure futility and depression in most. We only give it to the very few and condemn the lot. Prolonging tragic emotions to ensure the highest ratings has always served its purpose that heaven is always like a camel passing through a needle's