The Pride Before The Fall

The Pride Before the Fall
October 12, 2009, 7:50 pm
***10 12 2009

I am one of those people who can never accept a complement without squirming uncomfortably in fright.   Of course for self preservation one could hardly tell.   Antagonize me and it just might give me a harder backbone.   Maybe through the years I may have controlled my reflexes to a point that I might display an almost poker face and air some disdain.   But those times where I might be steering the topic away from me in the next breath by pointing to anyone else.   Maybe giving me a complement would really shut me up if one gets fed up with me talking.   Hahahaha.   Complements remind me I am more human and really contrary to it.   It is not that I am ashamed about the situation — far from it though.   I thrive on it.   Humility is a lifelong learning lesson that I promise that I would learn.   Anyone would be preening inside if the complement was true and I guess I am just ordinary and an 'anyone' to believe it.   It is just that I knew myself through the years and never wanted it to easily get to my head because if that happens its just not a pretty sight believe me.   It was also that being frank has taught me about comeuppance, commitment and patience.   I'm probably pretty good at bragging about my accomplishments that I stay away from even mentioning any one of them too often.   But yes! I am a good printmaker at one point and a studious curator at a stage in my life but learning takes years and sadly once they are not practiced enough you get rusty.   I have the best of mentors and damn proud of them too.   I also had the breaks that most would envy.   What I make of them though is my responsibility and accountability and no one else's.   My point is that I enjoy learning, to be challenging and always curious about everything that I seem to look good and be good at anything at all.   I kept on denying that I didn't learn that much about curating and consultancy abroad and just have been an artist there on a great tour.   But I have been burning brows to make connections and frantically doing my own research about the possibility of being an independent curator.   One could have that confidence even in the basic of basics.   Maybe I have not really tested my skills and concepts to its sharpest through the years but I know the methods, theories and could easily hone myself to the sharpest if need be.   I also had the experience abroad to guide, motivate and help out fellow artists there present their portfolios properly and quite successfully at it.   I am proud to say.   I am always sharp, quite frank and bloody brutal.   Skills that I accept but regret that I am very good at.   I also have my own pride in my own works that conflict in sharing my ideas at some point when I need to because I need not be a pious artist without getting anything back in all my efforts.   I want to see your soul first.   Transparencies we leave to priests, actresses, actors government officials and politicians.   Well, to each his own.   Concepts not wholly explored to one's satisfactions need not be accountable shared right.   Until an artist's concepts are on canvas literally and shown then he still has control over them.   Until one's artworks are ripe and full then it would just fall on its own weight and importance to be contributed.   Enough mooning though.   I am just happy that I am networking again and some possibilities are in the offer.   I might be going to France and Belgium for a spell on my own steam.   I am damn proud if I can accomplish those trips on my own steam and prouder if I can get away on those sojourns for free for half a year.   Make it a year.   Europe and Germany here I come!
It was just that ordinary month of 'ber' and another exhibit opening tonight that I was attending at the Art Center Megamall by a group of young artists quite exuberant about showing larger works through Paseo Gallery's sponsorship.   It was a good idea to have Jonathan Olazo design the show. Gathering the group together and the works to be delivered on time was another detail a bit lacking though.   It was an effort to collate different artists from different backgrounds, ages, and techniques together that made it a novelty still.   One would have thought it would be a mixed mash outcome but the format and quality of some of the newer works more than made up for the lack.   Plus is!   I have a few names to follow through for this year.   Ha ha ha… I particularly liked the more in your face works by four of the artists but would just forestall mentioning their names yet, this early on.   But I did make a point of thanking them up front and giving a hands up sign of congratulations.   I am prouder in a way on the outcome of some of the young artists that I have been able to follow through the years their growth and changes.   I was amazed that early on they had these breaks but I couldn't be envious since all of us at one point had this opportunity.   To stress though that I would still encourage them to be professional enough but still be adventurous in their ideas early on.   Taking each challenge as they come.   Regretting not doing them at all is far worst than making mistakes on details and excesses.   But through the years I still couldn't help cringing at the gaffs I've made.   Hahahaha.
I may be going to NCCA this thursday to look up their inaugural exhibits curated by a good friend Noell El Farol around 5 pm.   Jonathan is happy about the place and swears by its accessibility, management and spaciousness... Ha ha ha .. I better go see it.   Congratulations on the great wedding!   I may be thinking about venturing on consultancy in the long run about residencies and grants for free if I liked very much the artists' works rather than the artists themselves and not to greatly spaced apart in between.   See you guys there.   I am open to questions only if you think your good enough for the grants and have the portfolio to blow me off.   I bark loudly and I also bite.   Just a reminder guys.   Ha ha ha



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A Curator's Talk
August 16, 2009, 7:16 am
****08 16 2009

It was drizzling this Sunday afternoon and I was again an hour late.   I thought that they could have also started late.   Hahahaha.   When I arrived, there were a lot of interesting people.   This is a great time.   Pity Eileen wasn't in attendance.   On second thoughts.   I wonder why?   I caught a glimpse of other artists and some people at the end that I didn't know and sat put on the nearest vacant chair.   I missed the opening last night again for the many times now.   It was still a good idea to come today though.   There was an informal talk happening and wanted to catch some ideas and maybe get a broader sense of the atmosphere right now in the Philippine Art Scene.   I am sure there were a lot of going ons and plans that I am quite curious about.   Hmmmm.   Earlier, I heard that the space beside Finale Gallery would soon be a collection museum cum gallery for Charlie C. This is exciting.   This person has been collecting the pieces I had seen at most of the better exhibits for almost fifteen years I had been in this art business.   I wanted to see them again.   If you have the funds buy good works by young artists in their best shows and in ten years time seen and be envious.   Turning green.   Hahahaha.   Sigh. I am happy that the Pasong Tamo Extension Makati warehouses are now viable spaces for both art collectors and art galleries.   Business is booming again.   I am hoping that artists now would also set up shop here for their own larger studios.   What a great place to go visit from time to time.   I also want to set up in the future a space along these lines probably along this road too.   Sigh.   Wishful thinking though.   Going back to the talk.

I wanted to hear the curator of the exhibit Ronald Achocoso speak about the ongoing show at Manila Contemporary.   I wanted to see other curators and writers there.   When I arrived, I caught sight of some works and wanted to go around but since the talk has been going on for an hour or so I wanted to hear at least some of the gist.   Chabet was asking a question about an artist cum curator's prerogative on exhibiting his own works.   Hmmm.   Tacky question.   One could do so but one's responsibility and ethical decisions would be questioned outright.   Further it should border on the added work's importance to the whole exhibit concept.   A curator should guide the exhibit and treat each artists' work as one would handle one's own piece.   This exchange went on as the owner Valentine supported quite rightly that one should not be afraid of the stronger works as they complement the whole exhibit.   Or about an artist curating his own exhibit like some artists in the 60's cited by Chabet who successfully pulled it off.   Rightly so, as Achocoso had a piece in the show of an exhibit he curated.   Double whammy.

The show I could see was an effort though.   I like several pieces on their own.   The pieces by Louie and Ching were a bit out of place.   Pacquing was a good solid piece all on its own.   I thought Trek's was a lot of hard work of assemblages of paint painstakingly shaped and sized.   Chabet's piece was just great.   (I took a picture of the framed piece on the floor reflecting the neon and nylon string overhead).   Poklong's piece was reflective.   Tan and Ilarde's individual pieces would find that one has to contemplate hard.   Bacolor's was stacking.   Ringo's was obstructive and Reamillo's was predicted.   I also found that I hated collaborative works with your own grade school students.   I am happy about the show as a gauge.   But a bit disappointed with some of the outcome of the works.   Tsk tsk tsk tsk.

The talk went on.   I decided that I would look at the works now while other topics were discussed.   I couldn't help grinning when certain topics about the National Artist came up. It is always presumed that the distinction is awarded to a Filipino Citizen and not to one who is an immigrant.   I wonder if one could hold his head up for that award if the artist and rightly accept it if one is processing immigrant papers, is being petitioned or had expressed himself or herself to be willing to be a citizen of another country.   Would dual citizenship be eligible for a National Artist Award?   If one is a citizen of another country does he or she have a say on criteria of National distinctions?   There are laws on condemning, critical rallying and expressing subversive views and sentiments while one is in a foreign land.   Hmmmm.   I wonder how the Philippines would fair in a sensitive situation like this.   The Philippine art scene is indeed a phenomenon.   We have the talents and the art.   We have the resources and the education.   We have the critical thinking and passions.   We are active and creative.   Perhaps a boom is in the offing.   China has shown potentials to support its artists and galleries.   It has opened the Hong Kong scene and Mainland China to the international scene.   The recession has just temporarily brought a halt to China's expansion yet they are committed to the hilt by this early time.   There is no going back for them.   Watching the structures they have already created for their arts is a great marvel indeed.   The Philippines is just as dynamic if not with greater talents and better artists.

I decided I would watch this good situation unfold and hold my card close.   Very, very close.
I went around with new acquaintance Agnes L. and Eugene T. to some of the galleries around.   It was Sunday so most would be closed.   I asked if they saw the Ateneo Art Awards 2009 and they said they did.   Something untold about the concepts and another artist there piqued my curiosity.   They were liking what they saw.   It wasn't much with the 13 Artists though.   They couldn't get away to fast.   I wondered what disappointed them there.   Hahahaha.   We talked about some current artist potentials that I would like to leave out for another write up.   I really wanted to bring up some of my artists.   Hahahaha.   I do have some up I really like to work with again and invite to work with me.   I just didn't want them to nix it.   I will have to do some more research on Osage Gallery.   They were only here for a few days and they were flying back tomorrow.   It's great that Eugene would be coming back and staying put.   We set probable projects to work on. I still hesitated on giving out too many of my own artists that I work with.   But that could be arranged if the project proposals would work with a great exhibit plan.   Am more excited for them though.   Now, all I need is to collect comprehensive Filipino Artist Resumes for my own files preferably updated.   I can't wait to finish my compilations and my concept shows.   Sigh.   Time is indeed getting longer when one is excited about the future projects to be had.

It was great to talk with fellow curators and exchange ideas.   I admire that Ronald Achocoso would do a better representation through writing, curating if not exhibiting.   I had some time to talk with Chabet and exchange some pleasantries and news.   Chabet kept on joking I had a world all on my own.   Hahahaha.   I knew it had to have an underlining meaning.   I very much respect Chabet for being a great teacher in my college days.   He has been instrumental for a lot of changes in my ideas and concepts.   He has been a contrast and complement at the same time for my education.   He was in agreement that the role of a curator is to guide the exhibit and to present the works and concepts in the best possible light.   He is a good curator and I wish him the best always..
Agnes asked me who among Chabet's group would be continuing curating.   I said that Nilo Ilarde and Gerry Tan were good candidates.   Achocoso would be a good addition.   I hesitated saying my name.   Amiel Roldan.   I can say that I could handle the job very easily.   Hahahahaha.   You don't say that to acquaintances just yet.   Sigh.   Hahahaha.   Ringo Bunoan is a good contender.   I added that she writes well and coordinates better.   I added that Jonathan Olazo needs to work on fine tuning just about everything but he does have the resources and the time to do it.

I knew Agnes' gallery abroad.   I have been hearing a lot about the space and its artists.   Too much second hand information.   A lot were colored.   But since I am not inclined to any sides yet and no intention of entering the fray this early.   I could just enjoy the projects without making any commitment.   It was just that I wasn't here in Manila for a few years now and didn't have the opportunity to be first hand with the issues.   I am meeting a lot of people now with my four months stay in Manila and have been enjoying the exhibits.   I would catch up easily.   Well now, it's great that I had taken the time and that there was an event for me to talk with these people.   Hopefully we could work further. I heard their artists were great and some of them were friends.   I am getting excited about the events again.   Sigh.   I wanted to confirm some questions about past events and past issues but it was not the time.   Hahahaha.   Pity.
It would be an interesting year for me.   I got off at the next junction and bade my new friends good bye.   Heh heh heh   Till next time.   They were off to a meeting with their artists at Adriatico Cafe in Cubao.   Good luck!



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